the not-s0-controversial exbabyH. ;]

By: Unknown on 10:01 AM

I have no idea why that is so... maybe because i was hurt.... or maybe because, i didn't love him that much after all...

A lot of my friends tell me that I am not in love... that maybe I am just pressured since my past love already recovered from me, that maybe having a new lover is just my defense...

Every time they tease me with these things, I just give them a sarcastic smile... I deny it though truly, somewhere inside my heart tells me that they are right...

For almost three months, I tried my best to make it out with someone. Someone whom I thought was good enough to make me forget my past love... I tried to find in him the happiness that I once had with someone else... I tried to have another inspiration...

In its wicked way, it worked - a little.

I admit that I found something interesting in him, that somehow, I also felt happy with him... I wont ever deny that I also had many memories with him that I could cherish... that he is someone special too... that there is much things I learned from him....

but like what they say, "not all good things last forever"...

I knew that one day, the dead end of the road of our relationship will come... I was sure that there will be an end of it no matter how I try to neglect the possibility... and yes, I was not wrong....

I woke up one morning with mixed emotions. Sad, nervous, yet sure of what I was gonna do. I knew it was not just any other morning for I knew that on that particular day, I was gonna be single again.

To cut the story short, I broke up with him for many reasons that I opt not to share... He hurt me, thus, he does not deserve to stay in my life...

All of my friends were expecting me to fall down and endlessly cry... They thought it will be hard for me... but it was not like that. Contrary to what they thought, this has been the easiest break up ever.

I have no idea why that is so... maybe because I was hurt.... or maybe because, I didn't love him that much after all...